Arrived.

The more you think you've arrived and the less you see yourself as daily needing rescuing grace, the more you will tend to be self-referencing and self-congratulating. - Paul Tripp

I keep wanting to 'arrive'. Definitions of where I want to be in my relationship, are hindering me from change. While it is my desire to see Quinn overcome OCD related stuff, that's not going to help me in the long run. Yes, there will be benefits to our lifestyle, Quinn's personal freedom, my freedom, our kids benefit, but most of it is earthly benefits in that realm. Ugh, so frustrated with the way I 'preach'change to Quinn, yet take liberties in my own life because my issues aren't center stage like his are. I cannot continue to wish to 'arrive' in my spiritual walk with God or in my marriage, it's an ongoing need and acceptance for contemplation and change. To 'arrive' at a certain plateau in my spiritual life or my marriage, the party would soon be over, complacency would set in, boredom.

Galatians 2:20
I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.

Galatians 5:24
And those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires.

2 Corinthians 4:8
We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair;

(Romans 12:1, 6-12
Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God–this is your spiritual act of worship. We have different gifts, according to the grace given us. If a man's gift is prophesying, let him use it in proportion to hisfaith. If it is serving, let him serve; if it is teaching, let him teach; if it is encouraging, let him encourage; if it is contributing to the needs of others, let him give generously; if it is leadership, let him govern diligently; if it is showing mercy, let him do it cheerfully.
Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves. Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.